Heroin ?

December 13, 2011 at 1:04 am 6 comments

You fooled me into loving you 

your love so intense

when you are

around

But

when 

left me even for a day 

that sickness 

took over my

every movement

I needed you but 

I

hate you

I am not the only one u 

love

there are so many

They are so 

ugly

You will love anyone that

lets you in

You over take their thoughts

There mind is only on you 

Some use you like a spike

I  just smelled u

SOME JUST CAN’T GET

AWAY FROM YOU

but I beat you 

I left you 

for your sister 

The beautiful

Mrs.

METHADONE….

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Positive Thinking December 12th

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  • 1. DJ  |  February 28, 2012 at 3:48 pm

    Reblogged this on djswisdom and commented:

    One of My favorite pieces of art I wrote ….

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  • 2. Mz. Shell My Belle or CiCi  |  December 13, 2011 at 2:58 am

    Hey! Tis me Micheale (Michelle) AGAIN! This writing is so true, but what will happen on the day you are no longer on Methadone. I mean I think about that day a lot. One can’t live the remainder of their life on Methadone because their life won’t be very damn long. I have two children, and I want to see my Grandkids and Great-Grandkids. I want to grow old and pissy with my husband and rock in our rocking chairs as the sun sets. Being on Methadone, I probably won’t get to do these things I want to do. I mean Heroin detox is lulled by Methadone, but what is Methadone detox lulled by? I wasn’t put on Methadone for Heroin detox, I was put on it for chronic pain from Rheumatoid Arthritis aggravated by a head on collision I was driving during. I’m horrified to be a bad mother to my kids if I’m not on Methadone. OR will I be trying to find Methadone illegally if I come off it? I mean I know myself, and I’m a devious, sneaky little fucker. I hate this about myself, but it is me when the cravings take over my sensible thought processes. I really need to blog this but a lot of ppl don’t know about me, the Methadone, and my deviant behavior LOL! Thanks for actually being an outlet 🙂 Peace and Bacon Grease~M~

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    • 3. WISDOM  |  December 13, 2011 at 12:21 pm

      It is safer than u might think .. I started my heroin habit by having a script of oxy-contin for my shoulder and When I got out I was on pain management again ( not doing the big H again at that point ) and methadone was cheaper and less of a pain in the butt than going to pain management .. I used to sell heroin and when i would run out of the oxy’s ( this was back in 06 ) i would sniff the heroin so i would not with draw. But anyway I kinda wanted you to get a peak of what i was doing that.s why i just gave you that background.. I do not think about getting off the done when it starts to worry me than they detox you they take u down 2 milligrams a day till u are all good .. Thats what they do here in MD but you might get pills so I dont know what i would do in your shoes .. You will make it though you are an intelligent chicky I say be carfuil what u blog anyone on the net can read I am writing books about me so I go all out but .. I think u get my drift

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      • 4. Mz. Shell My Belle or CiCi  |  December 14, 2011 at 1:04 pm

        Yes, I get 10 MG pills, and I’m supposed to take 2 10mg tab 3 times a day. So 60 mg. I don’t know how I’d be bumped down 2mg a day. I mean when I finally get a dose low enough the cold sweats, nausea, ill temper, headache, vomiting, mood swings, and insomnia will begin. I mean I refuse to bring a baby into the world addicted to methadone because of MY doing. That makes me look like a “wonderful fuck up” of a mother. I have 2 kids that I gave birth to before I EVER was on a single pain killer, they were perfect. It would just be unfair to my baby. As far as blogging this, I have rethought that point. I’m NOT going to do something like that. My blog is about the silliness of my existence, and how I’d love to rip out my hair and scream at stupid people, NOT what med I take daily. 🙂 I’m glad to know someone else in my place. Atleast, I’m not the only person pondering this type of things. Peace and Pommegranites LOL~M~

      • 5. WISDOM  |  December 14, 2011 at 2:02 pm

        i go to the clinic but look it is what it is if it were percoset you would not be so worked up over this its because of the name honey.. I know that methadone is the safest out of the others .. fo real honey bunny cause percs have Tylenol and long term use shuts the liver down.. oxy’s well u know the deal there and the others are like way too strong for everyday use just chill girl.. ps I wanna see some writings new stuff..

        being worried shows the complete oppisite of how u feel u are a good mom if not you would not worry about using them and you would go hunting more and selling them too bad idea

      • 6. WISDOM  |  December 14, 2011 at 2:03 pm

        o and i love pomigrantes ..

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